Desparately Wanting To be

desperately wanting to be

anyone but me

who am I

why am I here

I need the answers to be crystal clear

no longer do I want

to lie about the lies that I lied about

if not in the wash

in the rinse it comes out

where do I go from here

no daddy to help discipline my fear

or to tell me

whats a square

or where do we get air

sometimes it gets so hard

I sit and my head spins

yet by the grace of God

I respect the pain when it finally ends

I feel as if one thing is all I need

and away will go the pain

knowing that this isn’t really true

I give much thanks for my knowledge of you

thanks for being my higher power

my guiding light

and much oblige to you

for getting me thru those nights

there are other times

the light gets so dim

I just don’t know where I’d be

without HIM

I get these feelings

that keep comin on

yet and still

I’ll keep holding on

how much longer will it take

before I figure out

a way to make or break

feels like I wanna be startin something

see I’am a product of the street

and I like running with

children of the night

got to get it right

don’t let the street eat away your life

you’d better come right

out here tryin to eat

running after bread and meat

in these big wet city streets

only thing at risk

is losing my life to the dopes I meet

I’m a product of the street

and I like running with children of the night

gotta get it right

cant let the street eat away your life